Sunday, May 19, 2013




今年第一篇的部落。
其实我很懒惰更新。
可是我不能再 facebook, instagram or wechat 的 timeline 写出我心里话。
憋在心里,真的很难受。
我唯有发泄的地方就是这里了。




昨晚突然间感觉很难受。
可是眼泪就是流不出。
这种感觉是我第一次有的。



去看了你的 instagram.
也许真的是命中注定。
我不小心按错了,
去到另一个人的 instagram.
看到那里的第一张照片,
眼泪就直下停不住。
瞬间听见心碎声。




原来你没有说谎。
只是我一直都跟着我自己的感觉走。
没有相信你。
现在我信了。
因为你说的一切都是真的。
也许我已知道答案,
只是不愿去接受。
我活该。



在那里的每一张照片,
你都笑的很开心。
真的很开心。
原来跟她在一起,
你是那么的快乐。



现在的我不戒不行了。
因为我知道我会上瘾。
事实为什么总是那么的残酷?
可以把一个人伤得支离破碎。



知道太多,
原来越伤,
真的很伤。
其实我不想戒掉你,
一点都不想,
因为我舍不得,
可是事实告诉我不戒不行。




你可不可以不要突然间一个 wechat 来问我在干嘛。
然后谈了两句就没回复?
你到底想要怎样?
我讨厌我自己。
因为我总是再期待,
总是会回复你。
vicky wai,
你可不可以不要那么犯贱??




You din't love her.
you just din't want to be alone.
or maybe, maybe she was just good for your ego.
or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life,
but u din't love her.
because you don't destroy people you love.





够了。
玩够了。
我对你说过,
当我戒掉你的时候会是我离开的时候。
我想,
是时候了。
我希望我可以狠下心,
戒掉你。




遇见你,
我不知道是对是错。
可是我知道,
遇见你,
我开心过。
那几个月,
谢了。
我会想念的。




我想你了,
真的到现在,
每晚都会想。
希望这种日子,
我不需过太久,
因为不知不觉我已过了每天想你的半年了。




  


 

Monday, November 19, 2012




很想和你说声对不起。
对不起。
也许我不该和你走得太近。
如果我让你有任何的希望,
对不起。
我对你的回复,
是因为我当你是好朋友。
我们真的很聊得来,
可是我并不希望跨过界线。





从一开始,
我真的只是把你当朋友看待。
很好很好的朋友。
有些事情一旦过了界线,
是可以感觉得到的。
只是一直假装不知道。
因为害怕,
害怕有些话,
说了出口,会很伤。
也许再也不能像以前那样。





这样的结局,
我不要。
所以我真的真的很希望,
我很害怕听到的那句话,
你别说出口。
因为我真的不知道,
要给什么样的答案,
才不会有伤害。
我喜欢的不是你,
而是你的好朋友。
我知道这句话很伤,
可是这是改变不了的事实。






很搞笑,
因为慢慢的发现,
你现在所做的一切,
我曾经也做过。





我以为我可以放下他,
可是我并没有。
因为那天无意的看到他的照片,
我竟然梦见了他。
呵呵。
很可笑吧。





至你:
你没有不好。
只是我的心太小。
里面早已住了一个人。
不要问我几时才能放下他,
因为连我自己也不知道。





至他:
很感谢你在我离开纽西兰之前送我。
我永远也不会忘记。
在纽西兰是我最开心的日子。
因为我竟然会为了特地和你skype而在那里的凌晨5am起床。
为的就是和你说话,
聊些无聊的东西。
很可惜不知道为什么,
在我回来这里后,
一切都变了。
你变得冷漠,
回复也短了。
而我却没有勇气问你为什么。





因为害怕你觉得我烦,
 所以再也不主动找你。
已经两个多月没联络。
我算不算很坚强?





也许别人早已不在乎,
只有我还再徘徊着。





我希望你会看到这个post.
如果是我自己多心想多了,
那我说声对不起。
我希望你不要误会,不要介意。
有些话,
写出来,比说出来容易得多。
我真的很希望,
我和你,还是很好很好的朋友。
因为真心朋友不容易找。 =)










Thursday, September 27, 2012




Good morning! :D
It's 6.45am now and I'm gonna fetch my bro to school later.
I know right. I'm a good sister.
LOL xD





Just got my ass back to home on mon (24th sept).
Home sweet home! :D
The first thing i did when reached home is to explore my bro's new car.
Ya. He got his new car 2 weeks ago.
The new MYVI.
After driving it,
what i can say is I GET SO JEALOUS!
Because his car is better than mine alot. LOL.
But I'm quite proud of him as he got his new car at the age of 19. =)







What i did on tuesday was i just bake a butter cake so suddenly as the mood was there.
hahax.
This is quite a random one as it's my first time baking it.
Usually i just bake pandan and chocolate sponge cake.
LOL.
But not bad, the butter cake is kinda nice.
should make it more often next time  =)








I fall asleep at 10pm just now and i dint even take my dinner . ._.
My mum wake me up at 12.30am and said let's go for supper at MCD TC.
I was like =.=???
LOLLLL! 
how ever, i still wake myself up and go for supper with them.
daddy, mummy, bro and my aunt. Everyone was there.
Actually i kinda like those time when i got to spend with my family.
我·不·介意·付出多少。
只要你们开心就好 =)










Just did facial yesterday.
Gonna have my hair cut later or tomorrow.
Then got my 2nd dose of HPV on sat probably.
after that gonna bake one more chocolate sponge cake and jelly mooncake.
My life is sooooooo busy this week.
Lots of stuffs have to settle.







Alright. that's all for now.
Bye! Xoxo =)







一个月没见了。
你,还好吗?
思念一直没停过。
可惜你不会知道。
=‘(
我,想你了。





我那么好,
为什么我要的,都放弃我? :‘(













Friday, September 14, 2012






One more week to go.
HOME. SWEET. HOME! :D
Can't wait can't wait! :D







一路以来都很想post一点比较私人的东西在这里。
可是又怕别人知道。
算了吧。
想到什么就写什么好了。
反正我不想跟任何人讲。
就写在这里好了。
你知我知就好。 :)







刚刚看到一个人。
一瞬间我以为是你。
心里莫明奇妙的高兴了一下。
可是当我知道我认错时,
心里很难过,很失望。







原来我,
很希望能再见你一面。
就那么一次就好。
因为我就快把你的样子给忘了。:'(







你知道吗,
那段话,
真的让我很失望。
你说我们相差太多了。
你不会handle.
你说我还小,
将来会遇到很多更好的人。
你说你的缺点很多,
配不起,
可是你就是很特别。
沉默的你,
很吸引。







那两个星期,
很期待你的出现。
期待你的短讯,
期待你的来电。
可是却失望了。
我知道,
我活该。
哈哈!







放工后一个人躲在车里,
发送了条短讯给你。
当我打到一半时,
活该的电台播了 可惜不是你 这首歌。
听到这句,
可惜不是你, 陪我到最后。
眼泪徇间掉了。
一滴一滴的掉在电话上。
可是我还是抹干了泪水,
把那封讯息给打完。








发送出去过后,
我很希望你会立刻打回电话给我。
可是你没有。
也许你睡了吧。
可是当第二天早上看到你的回复,
我竟然很开心的笑了。
虽然这不是我要的答案。

(^_-) 你是个很好的女孩!
你也加油吧!













你的名字,
也许不会再出现了。







放心好了。
她很好。
还是那么活泼可爱的在等待着,
不会发生的奇迹。










很可惜我们在错误的时间,
遇见了。





朋友,
如果你看见这篇部落,
静静地,
什么也不要问好吗?
因为我,
已没什么好说了。
就让它沉淀吧。

=)





Sunday, September 9, 2012



Just did something on this evening which I don't dare to do it all the time.
Never.
The 20 minutes conversation,
mean so much.
I really appreciate it.




谢谢你的坦白,
让我明白。




终于很放肆的踏出了第一步,
虽然答案很失望,
可是至少我尝试努力过。




如果你问我后悔吗?
我的答案会是:没有。
如果给我重新在选过,
我还是会选回同样的路,
问回同样的话。




可惜的是,
时间阻止了一切。
#也许不该相遇。
27.09.2012

Sunday, September 2, 2012

New chapter. New life.




Hi. I'm here again. At this hour. 
Lol.
I just can't fall asleep.
But I'm working at 11.30am tomorrow! 
Damn ._.




Most of the friends had arrived to their uni to start their new life.
I'm kinda sad because I'm so failed as I can't get myself into local U.
WHY AM I SO PLAYFUL DURING FORM6??!
Now regret GAO GAO seriously.





anyway, it's no point to hold on something which has passed.
Imma the optimistic girl always. Lol
Can't get into local U, 
But out there's a lot more ways to choose.
Maybe my life would be a different one?
Perhaps everything will be fine :)





To all the friends who will start their new journey soon,
Good luck and study hard.
May our friendship last forever.
Thanks you guys for giving me a very unforgettable form 6 school life.
I appreciate it lots. :)






Btw, nice to meet you Sean.
Your friends is just so crazy and nice. 
Lol.





Nights. Loves.



如果可以不那么理智,
也许结果会不一样。
我会允许自己放纵一次。
就那么的一次就够了。


Sunday, August 19, 2012





Please treat people as the way that you wanted to be treated.
I knew you hate it,
but why do you did it??
just try to imagine as someone did it to you.
text with no reply.
this is fuxking annoying.




btw, got some news from fb that Iphone5 is coming out on 21st sept.
International shipping will be on early oct.
wheeee~
I hope this news is true :/
I can't wait anymore seriously. Dx





IMY.












 This is true.









Goodnight  :'(





Monday, August 6, 2012

最近




最近发生的事情真的是太多了。
有点接受不来。




其实我有很多话想要说。
为什么我说不出口?
我觉得我是可有可无。
能不能学会珍惜?




我讨厌我自己。
因为多次说要放弃,
却一再的失败。




我很讨厌,
为什么偏偏你要那么特别,
没人能取代。

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Life.

My life is so miserable recently.
Stop asking why I didn't get it.
Stop asking where am I going.
Stop asking what I'm going to take.





Its all about my choice.
I choose what I want.
Not what u want.
This is my life.
Not ur life.
So please stop asking me.
This is annoying.





最近我失去了方向。
失去了方寸。
我不知道我在生气什么。
因为我没有权利。





Keep asking myself.
Why it happens every time?
Am I the unlucky one?
Or this is my life?




Mood down for weeks. Pfffffft.
他走失了。
消失了。
回不来了。

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

FML




Is going to update something what happened to me recently.
Give me some time. 
Cuz it's gonna be a long long post.
I'm going to tell out EVERYTHING here.
Cuz i can't stand it anymore.
Till now i still can't accept what u did.
Not at all.





Seriuosly, I DON'T LIKE MY OWN PRIVACY TO BE SEEN BY ANYONE.
NEVER AND EVER.
Every time when i talk about this case,
I will be very heng.
until now still the same.






for me, viewing ppl's privacy is a VERY VERY VERY bitchy attitude.
and i can't accept any reason for that.
there's still long more to go. 
wait for the next post.






whenever i think of it,
there's only two words in my head.
FUCK YOU.






U can say I'm rude,
who cares?








Monday, June 11, 2012




原来有时候,
不论过了多久,
某些歌,
某段歌词,
会让你想起,
某段时候的你自己。





Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Completed the 6 hours of glacier walk :)



Yay!!!!
Just finished my 6 hours full day glacier walk in FOX, New Zealand.

After the walk, only 2 words that I can say, Amazing and Tired.
The feeling is so weird when u step on the ice.
Y.E.S! Is ice. :)
This ice ain't those ice that u see in genting snow world.
LOL.
It's the natural ice!
Erm i don't know what to say about this post.
Just crapping something? LOL.




Anyway, I'm tired now. @@
Will take a bath and have my dinner later :)
Will try to upload some pics about the glacier walk in fb.
So stay tune for the pics! :)




Bye and night.
Is counting down to meet with muh besties in singapore! :P
Can't wait can't wait! :DDDD




I'm missing the one who won't miss me at all.
What to do? :/





Thursday, May 10, 2012

First stop of the 20 days journey - Wellington.




Yay.
Finally arrived safely here after 5 hours of journey from napier.
Well, we stay at backpackers' house again as usual. 
The weather in wellington is sucks.
The wind is soooooo strong and it's raining.
So we stuck at backpackers' house the whole day.
Tomorrow only we'll start to travel around wellington. :)




 
I should be happy because today is the first day i start my nz trip after working for 3 MONTHS here.
But the mood wasn't there today.
The home sick feel cover more than 80% .
This is so suck!
I wish I could be back home NOW.
IMMEDIATELY.
I miss them lots!!! :((((




Anyway, will be back home after one month.
Wait me ya  :D






32 days more to be back to home.
I can't wait anymore :'(




Sunday, May 6, 2012

Missing Home




Don't know why, the feeling of home sick attacked me suddenly.
The feeling is very strong now and it makes my mood down suddenly.
Just wanted to find someone to chit-chat awhile to express out my feeling.
but I don't know who to find.




2 of my friends left today. 
They are going back to malaysia.
when I see them packing their stuffs,
at the moment,
I wish I'm one of them,
who's packing the luggage and ready to be back to the place -- HOME.




Is kinda regret to choose to back so late.
Still got 1.5 months,
only I can back to home.
The feeling of home sick makes me got the urge to cancel everything and back to home NOW.
LOL.
But I know I can't. 
because flight ticket and everything is settle. :)




Heard from some of them that our pack house job is gonna end this tuesday.
That means my holiday is gonna start soon! :)
I don't know why suddenly I don't have the feeling of excited to travel to south island of new zealand. 
For now, i feel like skipping all trips and plans just to straight fly to spore to meet with besties and have holiday with them! :D
Hahahaha! 
really can't wait to meet with the pretty girls in spore <3 :D





Do u feel something recenlty?
Is giving up slowly :)
I don't wish to give up this time,
but sad to say that this is the only choice that i can do.



















Friday, April 13, 2012

Is waiting for the off day to come!




It has been a long long time that I dint update my blog.
I'm so sorry as I really have no time to update my life in NZ because i work everyday Dx
Today we were informed that this sunday there's an off day for us!
Yay!
IT'S LIKE FINALLY.
Soooooo...
I'm gonna update my blog on sun! :D
hehe.







And again, the feeling come.
Seriously i hate it very much.
What i thought it doesn't happen at the end.
I thought u'll miss me but u don't.
Not even a little right? :'(
Your reply tells it all.


Thursday, February 2, 2012

2 Days left..




收拾着行李。
不知道为什么,
心情突然很沉重。
也许是我不舍吧。






可是很矛盾。
同样的时刻,
心情又很兴奋。
因为还有2天就上机了。






祝我一切顺利吧。
三个月的时间很快过的。
#我会很想你。







                                                     The stupid funny conversation mean
                                                     more to me that you will ever know ♥ :)













Tuesday, January 31, 2012

The right one.




9个月了。
终于放开了。
不会再想你了。
现在的我,
过得很幸福,
很快乐。




等了你两年半,
是时候结束了。
原来去年的4月,
我过得那么的难过
。
你知道吗,
那时候的我,
每读一次自己4月所写的东西,
我都会流
泪一次。
可是现在不会了。 :)






我不打算删除任何一篇的文章,
就留着它当纪念吧。
每个人都会有过
去。
可是如果我未来的男友不喜欢,
要我删除完,
毫不犹豫,
我会删
到一个都不留。
因为他,
对我来说,
是最重要的。




 


以前那快乐的我,
终于回来了。:D

我不会再等你,
不会再想你,
不会再对你有任何的遐想了。
现在的我,
最爱
我自己。:)








你不珍惜我,
没关系。
我一定会遇到一个懂得珍惜我的人. :)





Don't change yourself for someone,
If they don't appreciate the way you are,
FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL.





Find someone who will purposely choose to lose and let u win cuz he scared you cry.
Find someone who will say you cute no matter what you did,
Find someone who will help you think when you are lost.
Find someone who will make you smile when you're sad.
Find someone who will chat with you no matter how tired he is,
Find someone who is willing to do silly things just to make you smile.
Find someone who is willing to make you as his world.
♥






# Let go yourself so that you have more choice. =)



Hope this time i will be correct
♥
 
 
 
 

Friday, January 27, 2012





我所说的一切都是真的。
为什么你就是不信?
你是真的不信我,
还是你在开玩笑?




同样的事情我不想重复两次。
可是我就是阻止不了自己的沦陷。
这次该停止?
还是继续走下去?





Friday, December 30, 2011




当一切已不能再改变时,
你唯有向前进,
因为即使你回头,
一切已不一样。







再难过的都会过去,
再美好的都会结束。
这句话是不是很讽刺?








我要的真的很简单。
可是为什么就是那么难?









Tuesday, December 27, 2011

It's x'mas!




Merry christmas!
hohoho~
really have a wonderful christmas this year =D
Passed it with my beloved family.
ermmm...
no time to resize those pictures and post it here yet.
so gonna load more and more pics soon! =D





ohya!
i got my DSLR few days before x'mas.
yay!