1 more day to go

Finally it reach 30.11.2011.

1 more day to go.

the worst day ever for me.

1.12.2011.

I'm scared.

Really scared.

Can i go through 1.12.2011?

I don't know.

I have never been this stress before.

Seriously.

NEVER.

yesterday night when i was studying half way,

suddenly i feel the stress was all over me.

It makes me can't even breathe.

This is the first time,

I feel it's so hard for me to breathe.

I even stress till my tears dropped before dinner time just now.

I don't know why am i so stressful these few days.
Tears drop because of stress??
This is so not me.
Seriously,

I never have this feeling before in my life.

Everyone of my family members keep telling me not to stress up myself.

They just told me： just do your best.

It's just a test.

If fail also nevermind.

It won't be the end of your life.

U still have long way to go.

They keep telling me not to stress.

If tired just go and sleep.

Don't sleep on the table.

Seriously,

my heart feel so warm when hearing all this.

but they dint know,

the more they telling me not to stress,

the more stressful i am.

Idiot

IDIOT!

u make me so PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!

I don't wish to give u a DAMN

but the attitude that u have really @#$%^&*

yesterday i told my mum what happen.

and this is her answer: it's your fault. you can't blame people.

WHAT THE FCUKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!

I PROMISED, 

NO MORE NEXT TIME!

I WON'T BE THAT KIND TO YOU ANYMORE!

this is the sentence which i wanted to give u.

FCUK U BITCHHHHHHHHHHH!

Everyone do have their limits.

Don't try to over.

sorry for being so rude.

STPM

FINALLY.

21th of dec is arrive.

one more day left.

People,

FIGHT FOR IT!

Good luck and all the best to you and me.

# just realise today is 20.11.2011.

what a nice date. 

LOL.

went to ask some info about the camera which i wanted to buy for so long.

disappointed again.

because red is not available at the moment.

only have white and black.

and they said red is lack of stock.

still have to wait.

arggggg...

already wait for so long for the camera.

and now still have to wait again.

it's kinda frustrated. =S

nevermind.

good thing is worth for waiting. =)

i just hope i can get it before stpm end.

so that i can take lotssss of pic with muh crazy friends after stpm.

wheeee~

exactly one more month to go.

i cant wait for the freedom time! =P

突然很想你

可是我再也没有理由去找你了

Disappointment

sometimes when u nearly get what u want,

but there's always a problem pop out which ruin everything.

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ????

i almost get the camera which i wanted since years ago.

but my dad just pop out and say u should save the money and spend it wisely.

since young till now,

my dad WON'T comment a single word on what i bought.

but this time,

he stop me from buying the camera.

maybe he think i shouldn't spend so much in it?

i really don't know what to do.

listen to him?

but i really want it. =(

im lost.

wait for me,

for sure i will bring u home one day =)

*perhaps this week*

is thinking what to tell my dad after i buy it.

your words really disappoint me at the moment.

可不可以

不要每次给了我希望

然后又收回好吗？

因为我真的失望到怕了。

♥11 :: 11 :: 11 ♥

Wow...

it's 11.11.11 ♥

this date is such a nice date.

but it's nothing special to me

as im single.

no dating, no sweet msg.

so it's just a normal day for me. =)

compare to *111111*,

*616* is more special for me. =)

since today is so special,

can i make a wish? 

i wish the time could be pause at that time.

even  just for a day.

                                                                  never regret anything

                                              because at one time

                                      it was exactly what you wanted

this is why i always say

i will never regret with what i did

even though sometimes it brings tears more than happiness

even though it's only a day,

but it's more than enough for me

because i know i couldn't ask for more.

 

很开心你把那一天给了我

：： 只是原来一切只值一天 ：：

 ˙·٠•●♥✣✿♥✿ happy-go-lucky ✿♥✿✣♥●•٠·˙

 

 

最近读到了这个故事。
我觉得形容得还蛮正确的。
LOL。

 

 

老鼠被猫写给她的情书感动决定嫁给猫，
结果却被猫吃掉，
临死前猫得意地说：
“小样，这么容易上当”。
老鼠捏着猫写给她的情书，
无比凄凉地笑道：
“在我收到你情书的那一刻，
我就料到会是这样的结局，
但我不愿相信这样的事实”。
 

有时候
明知道别人说的是假话
却安慰自己那是真的。







我曾经也当过那只老鼠，
明知道是假话，
却一直说服我自己说，
要相信我自己。
其实我一直都在逃避，
逃避那我不想知道的现实。







我不明白，
更不能原谅我自己，
为什么到现在看到了，
还会心疼。
我不是应该已经习惯了吗？

#今天的心情有点灰
我又看不见
我天空里的星星了

Happy b'day to my mum

My mum bday fall on next week,

but we celebrated her advance bday few days earlier since my aunt is back to ktn on friday.

i decided to give my mum a surprise,

so i called my aunt earlier to get help from her.

she help me to buy my mum's favourite cake from RT pastery house.

seriously, their cake is superb nice.

especially the green tea favour.

on sat night,

we went tc MCD to have our dinner.

back home,

we celebrated her bday =)

chiang chiang!

this is the cake which purposely 

bought from kl just for her =)

Pictures took when having

dinner at tc.

see both of them

played happily 

with the MCD

toys. LOL.

with my 2 aunties =) 

 

 

Imma smiling like a kid!

LOL! xD

preparing to light 

up the candles =)

oops! spotted the camera.

*smile and peace* LOL xD

 

my sis is so happy 

with her cake =)

haha! what a 

cute niece! =D

 

My aunt with

her 6 months

baby

SMILE! =D


 

my aunt is back to kl today.

have to wait til dec only i can see her again ='c

and today i failed again.

my tears are falling out when she hug me before she get into the car.

Don't hug me when u leave.

I hate that feeling.

But most of the time,

i'm the one who wanted a hug,

but also the one who cry first.

silly me.

till now,

i still wonder what cross your mind 

when u hear my name.

#  do you ever think of me

                                                                           

                                                                             sometimes,

                                                      i knew im not suppose to look back to the past. 

                                                                 but i knew doesn't mean i can.

Quote

I saw this quote in facebook today.

After reading it,

i smile for awhile. =')

because it's just so damn true.

                                                                   you meet someone.

                                                                    you two get close.

                                                              It's all great for awhile.

                                                           Then someone stops trying.

                                                                         Talk less.

                                                               awkward conversations.

                                                                     Then drifting.

                                                       No communication what so ever.

                                                              Memories start to fade.

                                       Then the person you know becomes that person you knew.

                                                          That's how it usually goes.

                                                                       Sad isn't it.

ya.

it's truly sad.  </3

Went sushi again with my family. 

seriously,

no more sushi for me, at least this  month.

i'm just enough with it. 

LOL.

guess what.

i saw u today.

it's the first time i met u since june.

i'm stunned when i saw u in the parking lot.

u just walk passed my car.

when i was standing right infront of the sushi shop,

i was hoping that u won't pass by there.

but it doesn't happen as what i wished.

u just passed by.

u are just few meters away from me.

at the moment,

i wish i'm a invisible person.

u know why?

因为我害怕，

我害怕我与你眼神交流的那一刻。

i always wanted to meet u somewhere just to say hi to you.

however,

when the time comes,

what i did is totally out of expectation.

i doesn't know i will choose this way.

until today,

only i realised i do choose the other way round.

i chose to hide myself from your sight.

i wish u will never see me.

whenever i see you,

it reminds me how suffer am i to go through june.

it reminds me how many tears that u had brought for me.

it just simply reminds me everything.

and all this happened today when i saw you again.

                                                      Don't beg for anyone to stay in your life.

                                                                           If they wanted to be a part of your life,

                                                                                     they will and they stay.
                                            



                                                                           so don't reserve a space in your heart for 

                                                                        someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.

                                                                                        #  im telling this to myself.

Sushi day

Already dint sleep for 33 hours.

But im still blogging here.

Dieeeeeeeeee =/

yesterday woke up around 2pm smtg =X

then straight away took my bath and meet with friends at sushi king. 

night went sushi with family again.

so my lunch + dinner on tuesday was just sushi  @@

sushi whole day.

after settle  my homeworks and everything,
i got into my room around 3am smtg,

but i can't sleep at all.

wth =.=

i was keep rolling and rolling on the bed from 3am smtg til 6.40am.

FML.

dint sleep for the whole night but still went to school with my half dead body just because of some important thing which need to be settle  D;

experienced insomnia again yesterday night.

i force myself so hard to sleep,

but the brain just cant stop thinking of those things which i suppose to forget few months ago.

FML!

and again,

it brought me back to the time which i miss.

and the memories just flashed back in my mind.

all the scenes were scattered around.

but this time,

no tears are out.

*clap for myself*

i know i shouldn't think of it again.

but my brain just failed to do so. D;

can i ask why?

it was the month which make me smile the most.

but it also such the month,

which brought my tears the most.

   


                       sometimes you will never

                 know the true value of a moment 

                      until it becomes a memory.

sleep tight! 

xoxo ♥