Tuesday, May 31, 2011

It shall be an end

thanks for your answer...
even though it's not the answer that i want.
actually i know what answer im going to get from you.
cos i know u well..
once i can't get the chance..
i will not get the second chance from u.
this show how cruel are u.


but why can't u just give me another chance?
i really need the second chance.
if u ask me again.
i will immediately reply u DEAL without asking question anymore.
but i know...
u will angry when u read this.
cos i repeated what *she* had done.
only will regret when u have lost the chance.
i remember what u told me.
don't regret when u have lost the chance.
u said u hate this kind of person.


deal or not??
is this question very hard to answer?
nope.
my answer is DEAL
but why??
why can't i say it out on the spot?
='(


you know im hurt.
but u don't even border.
how can u act like there is nothing happen?
can u teach me pls?


i rejected the part time job last week.
u know why.
because i scared when u need someone to be there for u
im working 
u don't know
i empty out my time on that few days just incase suddenly i receive ur msg that u need someone to accompany u...
but im really dissapointed.
feli asked me...
i told u vicky.
just work that job and get some money.
nah..see...u regret now.
NOPE.I DIN'T REGRET AT ALL.
cos i feel it's worth.


u don't know 
i was so exciting sending u the soup.
but what u had gave me REALLY DISSAPOINTED ME
REALLY.


don't do it anymore.
do you know how hurt am i when i read this msg.
but still
i replied u with a smile.
cos i don't want u to know that im really down at the moment.


i know it will never be the same anymore once i send u the msg.
but still i sent.
cos i really can't stand it anymore.


可不可以在我很需要你的时候安慰我
只需一句话
你还好吗
一句就够


recently keep replay this song.
cos...
i really hope this will happen to me now.
but i know it will be just a dream for me.


Babe 能不能抓住我
當我的心被搞亂了
當我又笨得要逃走
Babe 從背後抓住我
當我的沖動又犯了
當驕傲把我變討厭了
狠狠罵醒我



很想问你
可不可以
不要放棄我


放弃你
我真的做不到。


因为你
我哭了无数次
但你还是我最爱的那一个


Thursday, May 12, 2011

It won't be the same anymore.

YAY! 
Finally mid-year test had over...
But still have to work hard for STPM...
Vicky wai...
Trust yourself...
U c.a.n do it !
jia you! :D



sorry...
i fail my chemistry test again...
still remember *faster go study lar...don't fail ur chemi test again* ^^
i felt so warm when i read what you have wrote for me...
even though it's just one sentence...
but it's enough cos i know...
it won't happen again start from now...=')




Just have a talk with a person who are facing almost the same problem with me...
he asked me 1 question...
who hurt me more....
the 1st person who u have feel towards him for almost 6 years or u...
i answered him: u...
i don't know why...
why this time so hurt huh??
seriously...
it hurt MORE than expected ='(



Pls...
just tell me u don't have feel towards me at all so that i can give up u...
im almost half way giving up now...
should i??

 

u don't know...
when i read back all ur msg before i sleep...
my tears will automatically rolling down my cheek...
u know why??
it's becoz i realise ur msg have become shorter and shorter day by day...
now it's just a sentence...
sometimes you don't even border to reply. </3



ok...
this means what??
this means u don't care anymore...
i'm not the one who you will share ur problem with anymore...
just accept the fact that he don't have feel towards you at all vicky wai!
i hate myself.



sorry...
emo post again...
cos it's hard for me to tell people and show how sad am i now...
vicky wai is a person who won't show what she feel actually...
if she did...
that means she's really in problem and it's serious...
so it's the only way to express my feeling through blogging...=')




you don't know i miss you everyday...






Thursday, April 21, 2011

如果有一个女生
放下自己的身段
主动联系你
给你打电话
给你发短信


一次
两次
三次


如果有一个女生
放下所谓的尊严
有事没事都联系你
总想知道你在干什么



一天
两天
三天


或者好久
你觉得她很廉价


或许
你根本不在乎


甚至
你以为一切都是理所当然的
你以为自己是高傲的
别人联系你是应该的
你错了


她
毕竟只是一个人
一个很平凡的女孩


她也需要有人疼
有人照顾


终有一天
她会累了
倦了


她会哭着下定决心
再也不主动了
甚至忍着痛
不在联系
因为她给你的短信你从没回过


每一次的主动换来的只是更深的伤害


她
宁愿没有这样一个借口让自己痛苦



她会离开
再也不打扰你的生活




她会离开
悄无声息
从此你的生活不会再被打扰
也许这就是你的幸福
而你却因为不在乎而错过了



有机会给追你的人一声问候
她会高兴好久
你的冷漠每个人都会累的
因为我们是人


一样的人
累了
就一个人过吧





i just can't let it go.

为什么到现在
我还放不下你
从一开始的希望
到现在的绝望


现在的我才知道
原来你比我想像中还要惨忍得多


你单身
我等你
你说不想恋爱
我等你
你结束了你的爱需要疗伤
我陪你
我等你
我以为终有一天你会发现你身边的我
只可惜你给不了我要的答案 



当你打电话告诉我
你被她打伤时
我真的很心疼
其实那个时候我真的很想去你家看看你伤成怎么样
可是我没有勇气向你提出这个要求
因为我不是你的谁
我知道
我只是你的普通到不能再普通的朋友



if you ask
how many times have you cross my mind
i will answer once 
because you have never leave.



其实我很想知道
在你心里
我就只能当朋友吗
你知道
我要当的不只是朋友
however...
i still appreciate u...
as my buddy =)


因为你的一句 
I got feel towards you
not related to other factors.
我撑到现在
身边的人都心疼
周围的人都劝解
个个都说你别傻了
放弃吧
但我只是勉强的笑了一下
微笑着掩饰心里的痛
大概也就只有你
仍旧那么无动于衷


如果我放弃了
你是否会有少许的不舍得?



如果一开始你恨心一点拒绝了我
也许我会过得好一些


你曾经对我说过
别等到失去了才来后悔
所以这次我主动了
你不知道
我是鼓起了多大的勇气
你不知道
还是只是假装不知道


我在期待
期待你给我一个奇迹
但是我还是害怕
害怕这是一个遥不可及的梦


我落泪了你看不到我的伤痕
我放弃了你看不到我的付出
我沉默了你也听不到我的心声
为什么你就那么无动于衷


你可否知道
我每天都在等你的讯息
只可惜每次换来的都是失望


在写这篇文章的时候
我的视线突然变得模糊了
可是我这道你根本不会在乎些什么
对你来说也许我真的那么无所为


如果时间可以停止
我希望把那一天给停止
你并不知道
其实我那时真的很期待那个星期六的到来
和你玩true or dare 是我最怀念的时刻
19.03.2011 
It's so nice to go clubbing and sing k with you even though i don't know ur friends.


如果说爱情是一场游戏
那么我承认
我输了
输得彻底


你伤我那么深
为何我还是始终都放不下你
为何每当想起你
我还是会心痛
还是会流泪


文章常说
水瓶座的人往往不会被珍惜
现在才知道
原来这是真的


水瓶座的情感世界
虽然喜欢结交异性朋友
但爱只会给一个人
付出不需要有结果
也正因为太认真了
就很容易受伤害
虽然表面是是冷漠的
但内心永远永远只忠与一个人
哪怕他不是值得爱的人
也要坚守到最后一刻


我在意,你对我忽冷忽热的性格
我在意,你对我说过每句话的每一个字
我在意,你随口说出的无所谓
我在意,那些你不在意的所有



痛过
才知道如何保护自己
哭过
才知道心痛是什么感觉
傻过
才知道适时的坚持与放弃,
爱过
才知道自己其实很脆弱。
但我总是学不会


一次一次为你守候
终于还是不能停留
我们
是几时开始
渐行渐远
已经到了没有话说的地步
你的回复也变得越来越短


有时候真的很想放弃
可是时间一过
却又还是想念了



别说我很好
我很好
为什么你不要




终于明白
原来太爱一个人
受伤的始终是自己
伤害我
你会心疼吗




你是唯一一个我会叫你wee wang wang 的人
just you
no others.



Just tell me when u have found your girl.
I will let you go.
cos maybe i'm not the right girl for you :')
but still 
my feel towards you is still strong as starting.




sometimes 
something are mean not to be touched 
to prevent the flow of tears.=')









 

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Believe me...
i will get out from your life soon...



It fades day by day...
Is that you just don't realise....

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

It's just a disappointed night which end silently. x.x
ps: *men suddenly in love* is a nice movie. 



Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Appreciate

Don't know why recently seems like lots of people pass away...
It happened to one of my friend's dad...
really hopes that he can get back to his normal life soon...=')


oya...
last afternoon just dreamed that i was given a LAST CHANCE to call somebody who mean a lot to me...
after that call...
i will die on the spot! ='(


my mum was with me in the dream...
so i decided to call my dad...
u know what!
my dad dint even answer my call!!!!!
i was like...


papa...*i was crying madly that time*
do you know that it will be my last time to call u?
after this...
u wont be able to hear my voice anymore..
no one will call u papa as sweet as me...='(
can u just pick up my phone??
even it's just a minute..
but it's enough for me...='((


i cried when i get up from my bed...
the dream seems so TRUE!
i really wish this incident will NEVER EVER happen in my real life!

if i was given the second chance to call...
the one that i will call is you...
no others...
but will you answer my call??
i dont know...
but i just want to know the answer from you..

so...
learn to appreciate something or someone who really mean a lot to ýou! =)
they wont be there forever just for you...
dont regret when it's not belongs to you anymore...
LEARN TO APPRECIATE WITH WHAT YOU HAVE! <3 =))))


i have learn to appreciate...
but why dont you?